Hey you,
I know your struggle. I have been in your shoes before. I know how hard it can be to feel that there's anywhere up from where you are right now. But I also need you to know that it will get better. I know that's the most cliche thing anyone could ever say - but I am living proof. Whether it be in days, weeks, months, or even years - you will be okay. That's something I can guarantee.
One day you can look back at everything that brought you to where you are now and smile, maybe even laugh. But if right now looking at the past is too hard that's okay too. I'm with you on that. You do not deserve any of what you have been through. You do not deserve to struggle alone.
You deserve everything good this world has to offer. You deserve support and help. You deserve sweet treats, adventures, and to be surrounded by animals. You deserve to feel the sun on your skin and to wrap up warm in the cold of winter. You deserve to do things that light you up inside. You deserve to be surrounded by those who love you. And most importantly, you deserve to grow and heal.
You are so special, so loved and so needed. You make an impact on the world just by being you. From the smile you give to a stranger, to the food you bought for your friend, to the gift you gave someone or the advice that helped them get better. Your presence in life truly makes a difference. You light up a room just by being in it. Your corner of the world would be so, so dark if you was not in it.
I want you to try and stop isolating yourself and avoiding those around you. Reach out to those I know you're ignoring. I have been there. It doesn't have to be much. A message is fine if a call is too hard right now. Give them a chance, please. They are there for you, they want to see you get better. You never know the people you could connect with through this pain. Like me. I'm here.
I see how hard you're trying. I see the effort you put in every day. I see how much you want to get better. I see the tears you shed every day. I see the frustration. I see the hurt. I see that you're struggling, despite putting on your strongest face. And finally, I see you. For all you are, all you will be, and for all you do. I see you.
I know it seems like your world is coming down on top of you and you can’t find the strength to get back up. You’re spending your days crying, you can’t sleep, or even find the will to go outside and breathe in the fresh air. I know it feels so scary, so exhausting and so hard to do right now. I know how hard this battle truly is to fight. I know how easy it feels to just throw the towel in. And I know this as this is exactly where I've been before. I get it.
Please, take one day at a time. Everything will eventually fall back into place, so just keep going. Start with the small tasks if bigger ones seem too hard for you right now. Climb the nearest hill, not the biggest mountain. Know people care for you, love you, and are cheering you on. Even if it's from the sideline. I know you want all the answers now, and I can’t give them to you, but I can help you find the answer. We will do this. Together.
I am so proud of you.
Love,
Willow x
